What do you really want from life that you're not getting?

I came across this line in an article on - what else? - new years resolutions, and it really got me thinking about why I'm going to try to write a blog post every day this year.  There are a lot of other ways that I can write something every day; the real question is, why here?


One reason is that I can be held accountable here like I can't be if I am just writing in a journal.  On a blog, it's out there for the world to see if I give up on writing.  This is really the 'motivational' aspect of it all.  I know that writing every day is something that I want to do; this might actually make me do it.


If I write on a blog, it's out there.  There's no way to hide these words from the world once I've put them on the internet.  Maybe the publicity of this will stop me from being so withdrawn on certain issues.  The openness that comes with trusting other people with these words will hopefully help me outside of blogging, too.


So, what do I really want from life that I'm not getting?  Support from people that I think I deserve it from, and a reason to stop trying to deal with everything on my own. 


^ Just some musings for this second day of 2011... subsequent posts will be on more of a variety of topics besides my head.

...a new one just begun!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Here's to a happy, healthy, prosperous 2011 in however you need it to be.


I'm normally not one to make a new year's resolution, because I think that if I really need to do something I will, and if not, making a promise to myself and then breaking it is just a setup for disappointment.


This year, I'm doing things a little differently.  I'm not making a 'resolution', per say- more of a goal.  I signed up for the 365 Project, a website that encourages people to take one photograph every day for a year.  I thought it sounded like a pretty cool way to document a year.  After all, "a picture is worth 1000 words". :)  To go along with my picture-a-day, I'm going to try and have a blog post each day as well.  Together, I want the pictures and words to create something that I can look back on in the future and see who I really was in 2011.  Even if I don't get around to posting every single day, I'm going to do the best I can.  I've been doing a lot (too much) of thinking lately, so I definitely have topics for posts- it's just a matter of whether or not I have time to write everything down!


I think that's really the root of my goals for 2011.  I need to make more time for myself to do things that I've neglected since being at college.  I've had very little time to write and read, two things that I love but just haven't made time for.  Even if my writing for the year consists mainly of blogging, at least it's time I've made for myself to write something.  I need to start budgeting my time better so that I can have time for the things I love doing and not just things I have to do.


Speaking of things I love doing- I love sleeping!!  It's already well past midnight here on the East coast, and 2011 is off to a great start...so I'm off to bed!


Until tomorrow!~

Another year over...

Well, it's New Year's Eve once again, and yes, this is going to be the stereotypical "look back at 2010" post that needs to come this time of year.  I'm going to highlight a few of the great things that happened during the past 12 months.


Overall, 2010 was a pretty good year.  I started off the year spending a week and a half in Paris in January with my Dad.  J'adore Paris =) and it was a great start to the year.  I loved being there especially now that I can actually speak French to the locals (unlike the last time I was in France), and now that I care some more about all the history of the city.  It's definitely a different experience being in Paris once you're studied French literature/history.  Everything makes a lot more sense.  Below is a video I took on my last night in Paris, from the top of the Centre Pompidou (Pompidou Center, which contains a modern art museum).

The Olympics took place in February, and my favorite sport to watch was curling.  Later on in the month, I actually got to try out curling myself at a club near my school.  It's a lot harder than it looks!

March is basketball season!  With the pep band, I was lucky enough to travel to Hartford, CT and Palo Alto, CA with the band.  Spending the end of spring break in California with the band was one of my favorite college memories so far.  Taking a trip to Facebook and spending an afternoon in San Francisco with the trumpets (and some other awesome bandies) was an incredible way to finish out the pep band season, even if the team did lose in the first round.  As much as I complain about band, there's no way I would ever quit.  The friends and memories I've made as part of the Rutgers band will be with me forever.

Evidently not much happened in April, because I don't have many pictures from that month on my computer.  Rutgers Day and the Scarlet & White Game brought an official end to the 2009 marching season; my roommate and I and some other friends decorated our floor like the ocean for the floor decorating contest...but I think by this time we were all just ready for the semester to be over and summer break to begin!

May must be a great month for me to make a fool of myself.  From Rutgersfest to the ResLife carnival, the end of another year at Rutgers was right around the corner.  I think we were all starting to go a little crazy by then.  (Case in point:  see image.)  Once the summer break finally started, I spent a day in Philly with a friend where we went to the Top Chef tour and met Jamie and Nikki and ate some awesome food!

June, June...well, I started my summer class (16th century French lit) and started my 7th summer at Creek Run.  While it was by no means my favorite Creek Run summer, I still met some awesome people and made the best of it.

July brought Independence Day and Bastille Day, and I, of course, celebrated both.  July 4th was spent with my family watching fireworks at a nearby high school; Bastille Day, in New York City at a street fair with my dad.  What can you say- we love French!  My dad, one of my sisters, and I also did the Philly Challenge in July.  What that is is a race around Philadelphia with clues directing us towards places where we had to take pictures proving that we were there.  Although we didn't win (and did not even come close!), it was a fun way to spend time with each other and explore a city that's very close by but that we rarely visit.  Lastly, my family went down to Washington, DC for a day, toured some museums, ate some delicious cupcakes, and stopped by the White House.  Though the trip was brief, we all loved it!  I think July more than made up for June in busy-ness!

What does August bring but BAND CAMP!  Lake Greeley was a rainy mess this year, but that didn't stop the 2010 tRUmpets from making great memories and having a lot of fun.  A highlight of this year's band camp was the huge dodgeball rivalry between Kenny's team, Andy's team, and Any Team but Andy's Team (aka, the girls!)  It was a great, albeit slow, start to what turned in to a superb season for the marching band (although not the football team...).

September marked the beginning of the second half of my Rutgers career, and my 3rd year living in Brett Hall.  No comment on that last one......  I also chopped off all of my hair in September and donated 12 inches to Wigs for Kids.  It's a great organization that provides its wigs for free (as opposed to Locks of Love, which charges).  It felt great knowing that I could donate my hair for the second time in less than 3 years.

I went home in October for the first time this semester and surprised my parents, who were completely convinced that I was still at school!  It was my high school marching band's home comp, which I go to every year.  Unfortunately, Rutgers had a football game on the same day this year, but I was done there early enough to drive home and see my high school perform!  It was a fun weekend of seeing friends and family who I don't see, usually, except for breaks because of my crazy schedule.  Also, a shout-out to my mom, who turned 50 in October!  We had her surprise party in August so that it would really be a surprise!!

In November, I wrote a book.  It was my first time participating in NaNoWriMo, and although I seemed to go crazy at times, I'm absolutely glad that I participated.  The feeling of accomplishment at writing that fifty thousandth word and the people that it connected me to made the experience so worthwhile.  I also saw Les Miserables with my entire extended family as my grandma's Hanukkah gift to us all.  It had been about four years since I'd seen it last, and this time, I didn't even fall asleep ;-) !  It's hard for me to make it to all the family get togethers now that I'm busy at school, so I really enjoyed the opportunity to see everyone.

Obviously, the most important thing that happens in December is my birthday!!!  I finally turned twenty =D  I had a great evening celebrating with my friends a few weeks early, and then spending time with my mom on my actual birthday.  It was a very laid-back, but enjoyable, celebration.  I also traveled with some of the marching band brass line to New York City to play for the Heisman Awards Dinner.  I don't really pay attention to college football all that much, but it was a good experience nonetheless.

As you can see, 2010 was a busy and fun year for me with lots of great memories, great friends, and great experiences.  Here's to a 2011 that's even better!